Yikes-New Direction, New Ideas

So I'm terribly sorry for never having finished the last story, I've been having a bit of down time on the internet as of late. Most of my free time has been spent looking for some form of work, something I haven't had for the past 7 months now.

I still plan on updating this site frequently, I'm just going to have to get back in the groove, when that happens I don't really feel at liberty to say quite yet. I've also been having some trepidations about the direction things had been going, I wasn't really finding a good groove with the size of the stories. I really felt that there should be more to them, but I want to keep within the 1000 word limit. I'm just going to have to brush up on my 'short story' skills more as opposed to writing like I'm beginning a novel, setting up characters and locations that are irrelevant to the direction of the story.

Also, I've been having some deep philosophical thoughts on the direction of my own life, what I'm doing, where I want to be one day and what my art really does for me. I've come up with an interesting look at what exactly my art is too. Most might say that art is an expression of one's feelings, an extension of their being put into a visually/mentally/audibly pleasing manner. What I have been pondering though is more or less, what if my art isn't in as so much an expression of me; but more or less a preconceived view of the direction my life is taking.

I feel like the things I draw, write and paint extend themselves into my life and form my reality in ways pertinent to what the piece contained. An example could be a series of pictures I had done that involve smiling faces which I generally perceive as myself and since I had begun drawing them I began to feel happier. I want to try and direct my life with my art now, I want to visualize myself in great situations, places and emotions and put them either in drawing or into stories. It's a bit of a long shot and all together bizarre, but I'm going to do it.....

So until I have a more stabilized idea of what I'm trying to do, expect fewer updates to the site while I take some time to really get a grip on my reality and what I'm doing with it. Thank you.

Peace